Adolescent (s.m.) - Said of someone who is slowly recovering from childhood.

(Ambrose Bierce, “The Devil's Dictionary")

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Happy, but she is still always different.
It's night there, even in the small, distant, vanished dreams.
Pain, misunderstanding, sadness: that's all.
She rather wants that dull, never full life.
Death of torn desires.
Fictions without authentic feelings, really useless.
Question: a little girl to love?
To make herself want to be an adult, empty life there, causes the end of the night in infinite desire.
It really chases lies: love, joy, motherhood.
They are only images. Or do truths really exist?

Daughter and Mother are sun: it's her!
In fact, fear and doubts therefore arise:
having partners, without seeking life, however, others:
the now lost, boundless dreams of the innocent, sweet.
/>She still searches for hopes and desires with beautiful eyes.
Only thing, one request, is:
“Aviva undermines the living soul!”
One thing is requested:
beautiful eyes with desires and hopes.
She still searches, sweet innocent, for boundless dreams.
The others are now lost, however: a life of searching without a partner,
having doubts and fear , therefore effects arise in her: it is the sun!
They are Mother and Daughter: truth!
Do they really exist or are they just images?
Motherhood, joy, love: really lies?
She chases infinite desire, in the night of the end, the cause: the empty adult life.
Does she want to be loved as a child?
A truly useless question.
Authentic feelings, without pretenses, torn desires for death.
Full, never extinguished life, that. Rather, she wants everything.
Here: sadness, misunderstanding, pain, vanished, distant.
Dreams, small moles, even the night is always different.
It's still her, but happy.
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Double-faced text and palindrome (word per word), like the story of “Palindromes”, like the story of Aviva, as life and the world often are – what we inhabit and what lives in us. It is made up of 232 words, another palindromic component, and is arranged on 33 lines (also a palindromic number), divided into two blocks of 16 + 16, with the phrase in the center: "Aviva undermines the living soul!" (palindrome in turn, letter by letter). Whichever way you read it, the meaning of my "review" (or my story), the Aviva situation, changes - for the better - as soon as you reach the central sentence. The only thing that varies is the punctuation, but not the words, just as the actresses change (8 of them, and all different: petite, fat, black, white, young, adult, there is also a male) but not the character. (Aviva always remains She, regardless of any existential punctuation).
 

But for me this was not a mere exercise in style. Because inside the text there is her, Aviva, the sensations I felt, and the unique story of Palindromi, a film that tells the story of this twelve-year-old girl (girl/woman) who wants to become a mother at all costs. Her parents stop her in time, but she runs away from home with the aim of becoming pregnant, finding herself immersed in an unknown, seductive and dangerous way.
 

< 4>And therefore Aviva undermines the living soul: its inextinguishable flame burns existence, explodes in all its poetic power. Even in a stranger's car, in a cellar full of dreams and monsters, in a squalid motel room, in conversations with the world, among the trees of a forest. Aviva is a child, a girl, a woman, a daughter, a mother, a partner, a dream, a companion, a mother, a daughter, a woman, a girl, a child. It's a palindrome: because no matter how much the world and life try to change her, she remains herself.
 

And I like to think that, everywhere be happy.